feelings feelings feelings

well, 4days ago and tat is sat. its mummy death anniversary. time really files, calculate properly, mummy have alr passed away for 9years. wow! actully now if ppl ask me whether i will miss her or think of her, my ans is yes! in the night i will also dream abt her looking aft me when i was young, but when i woke up,its all jus a dream. how i really wish tat mummy is not dead and she i still aline to be beside me looking aft me.
from some ppl point of view,i'm not grown up, but in actual age,i'm alr 18. the main reason tat i'm still acting as if everything i need to ask b4 i do is because i wanna care and concern. yes i know tat grandma gave me lots of care and concern, but tats not enough. i wanna mummy love.

lets not talk abt this anymore, yesterday i went to granduncle stall to help out a while. then as we are getting ready to go home. i went upstairs to get some things. then i dunno tat the china guy(granduncle's worker) -- ah qiang was also upstairs. so on the way up, i heard footsteps so i tot its aaron, so i out my head down. then when the sound of he footsteps is coming nearer, i jumped out and shouted "BOO!". and guess wad, i scared th china guy instead of aaron. i really didn't mean to scare him u see. cos i really dunno tat he was upstairs. so sorry man!