She said sorry to me...But i dun feel right,something mus be wrong...

Yesterday,my friend said sorry to me...She was very emotional yesterday,but upon receiving her msg,i felt uneasy...Its not her...Wad had made her change...She doesn't like to say sorry to me in the past de,but yesterday she has said sorry...She say that she has though through alot and realise tat i've been suffering while being her friend...But i do not think so...Actually being her friend i can learn how to tolerate different kind of attitude and temper...Although sometimes i'm really very furious abt her attitude,but i dunno how to express the anger...And most of the times,i endure...Its lyk swolling down my saliver into the stomach...Although sometimes after swolling,i will have stomachache,but aft a while everything is over...I oso wanna say sorry to u for not being a good friend...SORRY!

Am i useless?!

I think i'm very useless,cos whenever my friend has problem,i cannt find anyway to help her out...I dunno wad to do,all i can do is jus to listen to her and let her talk till her hearts filled...Am i useless???But i really dunno wad to do knw...Thinking through nights,but still dunno wad to say to my friend and make her feel better...Hmmm...
I have not contacted my another friend for weeks le,am i doing the right thing?I oso dunno,but recently i feel very peaceful,everyday staying at hime doing the things i want and nobody is there to disturb me...My grandma has her things to do and i oso have mine...When i'm bored,nothin to do,my sister will entertain me...Even my bro-in-law friends will entertain me,they are fun ppl...Although their whole body is full of tatto,but they are not fierce at all...They will onli be fierce when ppl bully their friends...They are a group of ppl with great sense of friendship...Although their mouth are also very irritationg,but i find them better compare to ... .. ..Cos its lyk no matter wad u say,they will onli show a black face when they not happy,but less than a min,they will be back to "suan" u...Hmmm,this is called real friendship...

I'm fortunate

Wow!!!I think i'm the most fortunate gal in this wrold...2 days ago,my sister bought me a handphone...Although it is not the latest madel,but at least she has a heart for me...She knows that i always wanted to change a handphone,so she bought me 1 recently...I think i'm very fortunate to have a sister lyk her,although in our daily life we doesn't seem to care much abt each other,but everytime when i have problem,i will always find her to confind all my problem...Although she also cannt giv me any good suggestion,but she i9s a good listener...Hmmm,i jus came back from the doctor there for a full body checkup,it was quite interesting and fun...Cos i do not have alot of seriuos illness lyk hypertension,fits and heart diseases so the time used to check is quite fast...At first i tot there was a need for a blood test and seriously speaking i'm scared of needles cos of my past experience abt those unprofessional doctors...But this doctor is ok,and i do not nid a blood test,all i had was a typhiod jab...Quite painful but he onli took abt 2 min to finish the jab...

Dying Soon!!!God knows i left how many days to live...=)

Recently,i heart and soul is announced dead...The actual reason is not know,mayb is caused by serious virus ba...But i wun care abt all this stuff as nobody cares...Even if i die tml,there will also be ppl clapping and celebrating...But its ok la,cos my heart is dead and i will not feel anything le...Every slash u gave to my heart is pain in the past,but now i'm stone to everything,even those hurtful msg that u send will not mak me cry anymore...Cos my heart is dead...I will not trust anybody anymore in my life except for 1 person,but if that person also chose to betray my trust for her,i might as well jump of the building straight away rather then waiting aimlessly for the day to leave the world...The process of dying will not be pain ba,cos i'm scared of pain...Hmmm,but i think it will not be long also,jus give the god 5 min to finish me and i will not be in this world,then i will not be goin through all the pain given by friendship and kniship and relationship...All this are a torture to me in the past,but now all this are a blessing...Cos i've already think v carefully le,everything has its reason and retribution...So i will not hate the person,i will love the person even more because she teach me how to grow up and also taught me the lesson of whats the real world abt...So now i'm not living in a world of dreams and perfect...In the past,i though everybody is perfect,but not i dun think so,cos i've waken up...I have to thank you...Really...Cos u really teach me alot in the processing of ---...
I will not because of u and drop another tear of mine,cos i think u dun deserve me to cry for u...The onli deserving person to let me cry are those who love me and also teach me wad is reality...And thats my family members and my onli friend in my heart now...Y will things turned into this manner...I also dunno,mayb is a challenge for us to go through,but we fail ba...Thats y everything has changed in jus one night...

I WILL NOT DROP ANOTHER TEAR FOR U FOREVER!!!I WANNA FORGET ALL THE PAIN THAT U GAVE ME!!!GOODBYE FOREVER!!!

Solo traveller!!!

Hmmm,recently i'm learning how to be a solo traveller...Wad does it mean???That mean,i'm trying to live alone in my own world again and also to slove all the problems by myself...In the past,after i knew a good batch of friends,i will go and find them once i got any problem...But now,everything has return to the past..I'm all alone,but that does not mean that i will die without my friends,cos i still have my family members...I know that they will always be by myside supporting me all the way in no matter wad i do and this cannt be compare to all the things that have been done by my friends...Cos family members cannt be changed or forgotten,by friends are different...
Actually being alone is not scary at all cos all i nid to knw is that there are always ppl beside me when i nid them and thats true...Beside me,i have a true friend that will always listening to my sorrow and although we always quarrel,but the relationship between us has thus become closer,although we are not always together seeing each other,but she always knw wad i'm thinking when i'm down,so everytime when i'm sad,all i nid to do is jus to call her and she will be there as my good listener...

Happy Mother's Day!!!

During the arrival of mother's day for each year,i will always think back to the years where my mum is by my side encouraging me...Although she is strict towards my school work,but she is a fair person,if u do well in ur exam,u are deserve to play,but if u did not do well,i think i will surely get a good wacking de...I really miss those times where my mum is around,but now...Although my mum is not by my side le,but my grandma is...My grandma is lyk my mum,she takes care of me and my school work,she is same as my mum,strict in our school work,but all my good grades now have to thank her for all her strictness,and she also tolerate all my temper when she ask me to study...Now i knw why she has been askin us to study hard as job are hard to find nowdays...Lyk what old ppl might say nxt time when u come out and work,even cleaners nid a "O" lvl cert...At first i tot of this i think it is funni as everybody is fit to be a cleaner,but y mus a cleaner hav a cert...But as time goes by,finding a job is becoming more and more competitive...Even though u hav found a job,but that doesn't mean that u will stay in the job for long...Ppl around the world lyk to try on new stuff and things so ppl will find their job boring and wanna change to a new one...Thats when ppl subtitude their space...

HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY!!!

I LOVE YOU!!!

OMG!!!Its so troublsome!@#

Hmmm,yesterday me and aunt dawnna went down to shatec to register for my admission,and we also pay the $3000 plus at the same time...After all this is done,we receive a booklet telling us more information to what has been done before the orientation...There is a huge list of things and lots of things had to be bought on the day of orientation,eg:black heels,white blouse,black skirt,vest and shatec shirt...Lots of things right...Then also before we go for the orientation,we need to go for a full body checkup and we also nid to go for a jab,i forgot what is the mane le but i knw that the jab that we nid to tak is prevent us from getting virus from the food cos our course also require us to have cintact with the food so we nid the jab for protection...Is not onli this onli lor,we also nid to go for x-ray...I also dunno wad is all this for lor,so troublesome right...Haiz...Then hor,before we leave the room,we also ask the admin ppl that whether my hair colour is suitable for the school,guess wad they ans..."I think it is not suitable","but on the day of orientation,the course tutor will tell u whther it is suitable not"...Irritating right...I nid to dye back the colour of black again...Humps...

Ouch!!!My leg hurts...

Damm it man!!!My leg hurts...Reason???Bacause yesterday i went to NYAA Ceremony at Singapore Poly...As i was a student council in the past and i did lots of service to the school,thus my teacher repay all our service my giving this NYAA award...Actually i tot it will be grand,but actually it was ok onli...Cos we onli got a NYAA badge...Actually i didn't expect much as i onli got sliver,but i think getting this award is good,cos all of us once again gather around not to do council duty,but we gather around yesterday to get this award...Well,after saying so much,u might think that how come haven get to the point...So here it comes...In the morning,before i get to the ceremony venue,i went to causeway to meet up with meiling and so i wore the white blouse and the black heels together with a pants...And i'm not too clever enough to think that my leg will be painful as the heels was a new one,so i did not bring any slippers with me...And so trouble comes,after reaching causeway.my leg started to pain and so i went to the toilet to paste the plaster...And at that time,my leg already got blister,onli haven burst yet...But i do not care so much and continue on my journey to Singapore Poly with meiling...At first it was nothing as we sat through the journey till we get off the train and move along till we reach Singapore Poly auditorium...Hmmm,at that time my leg is already crying,but i endure the pain...But till the end i really cannt take the pain,i took of my shoes and sitted on the position where it was alocated to me...
After everything ended,my leg is crying furiously and i really cannt take the pain anymore,i took a taxi home...But i realise that i do not have enough $$$ on me,so i had to get down the taxi half way through the journey and took a bus home...It was reallt pethetic u knw...So i took bus 67 home,i stop at blk 26 and walk straight home...Till the very end,i took off my shoes and walk all the way home...It was quite funni at first as lots of ppl keep looking at me and some was saying softly "why isn't this girl wearing her shoes"...I had no face at all at that point of time,but i really dun have the courage to wear back my shoe as the pain was unbearable...Till now the pain is still with me...When i bath i will take a longer time as once water touches my blister,tears will my rolling down my cheeks...Can u imagine the pain...And after bathing,my blister will ooze out water and when sleepin,the position of my sleep is funni as my leg cannt be put on the bed,cos my leg will be painful,so when i sleep,my leg outside my bed de...Poorthing right...Its all because of the NYAA la,onli our school wear until so formal...I can say that compare with the other schools,our school is the most neatiness of all...Cos all their attire is lyk different colour tie,some no tie,some wear blazer some wear uniform...Onli us,all wear the same blazer,same colour botton,same white blouse and same red tie...All this have to thnks our dicipline master that check on our attire everyday and will correct us when our attire is wrong...Thank You!!!

Excited!!!

Wow,i'm going back to school le...But dun get wrong,is my tertiary education school and that is SHATEC!!!Lolx...Jus i heard from tri that we are having orientation on the 28th june...But she say that they will send us a letter to inform us...So exicted lei...I'm going to be in a new environment,new friend and oso got old friend to acc me la...Tri oso say that we need to go for body checkup and oso need 3 of our pics to mak student pass...Wow,i think it is exactly lyk poly lor,onli we nid to wear uniform onli...Lolx...I wanna start school now...Right now...

I'm goin to be studying at shatec!!!

Hmmm,ytd after i came back from shopping,i went to open the letter box and receive a letter from shatec saying tat i'm admitted into their school...Then i have to register by 11th may...Hmmm,but it is quite expensive,cos when i go and register,i nid to pay the first school fees and it cost $3500 plus(forgot the actual amt)...But i'm really happy that i'm studying in that school cos my dream is to be a tourist that can travel around the world...Although in the future i cannt to the job that i lyk,but i think it is worth cos i got to interact with the other compaines that are related to the job that i'm interested in...May god blss me that i can persevere for the nxt 3 years and do well in my exams too... :)
Another 2 more days is my NYAA ceremony le...Because of that i nid to buy black heels,black hair spray cos my hair is dyed blone and it is not suitable for the event,so i have to spray it black...It is really very troublesome lo...Then i oso bought a bag and watch...Wow,jus 2 hours and i spend $70 ytd...I think i'm going broke again...Once i go out i will keep on spend $$$...Hmmm,y can't ppl live withput $$$...Everything in the world now is all $$$ and all the things are getting more and more expensive...

I'm so touched!!!

Hmmm,last night when i went to the medical hall to buy things with my sister,we walked past a stall selling newpaper de...Then i saw a book that has lots of pics with Fahrenheit / Show(xiao zhu) / Ming Dow(183 club)...Then i jus say that i want that book cas the content is all my idol,so she bought the book for me...Isn't it good...This is the first time my sis help me buy things without even me pleading for it...I Love her so much...Lolx(evil right,onli love her when she treats me good)...But i think she will knw that i love her de lor,cos she is my onli sis ma...If my grandma*touchwood*leave the world le,she is my onli kin that i can depend on lei...Cos my bro onli how old,cannt even look aft himself wanna look aft me...Dream on lo...Cannt say lyk tat,cos aft he grow up,he have the ability,he can do wadever things he lyk le...But now lets pray for him tat he can pass his PSLE...At least a pass grade for him to go express class de...Lyk tat i will be v happy le,cos my grade oso not so good ma,onli at the very last lap then improve...But oso not improve till all get A1,so i nev set such a high expectation for him...Onli he can pass all i happy le...
Hmmm,now i'm v worried for my grandma,cos she has an early stage of diabetes,then we are forbiting her from eating too much sweet things and after every meal she eat,she has to eat a pill to help the body clear all the glucose in the food away...I've learn in F&N that this is call "INSULIN"...Its something that help the body clear away all the unwanted sugar through urinating and faeces...Then she oso cannt get any cuts,cos the wound will be v difficult to heal,then if the wound starts to rot,she will have to cut the whole part away...V poor thing right...Then now she cannt eat her favrouite durian and mango...Cos all this have high sughr content and it will thus worsen her sickness...
Thats y ppl say if can dun get sick is the best,once u get sickness,it will continue one aft another till u leave the world...Lyk me,last year i jus eat meat,then i start to fall sick...The highest temp i had is 40 degree...High right...Then for that whole period i keep on vomiting,this is how i got my gastric problems now...Hmm,thats for all...Buaiz

OMG!!!I need a psycology!!!

OMG!!!I think i'm goin crazy le...How...Somebody out there help!!!Today i had nthing to do at home,so i went to surf the net,and there is one popular website that most of the teenage lovers love to go that is the "Love Calculator"...So i went in...And guess wad spouse name i type in...The person is steven koh tee yong...I'm mad right...Somebody quick ask me to wake up...ARGHHHH
I dun wan to become lyk tat...I'm normal...OK!!!I'm claming down now...The result are different...Cos i went into different love calculator website to check out...I rmb a few result...There were 3%,and the most funniest answer that i got was "cheryl loves steven but steven doesn't knw wad to do"...Is this ans funni...He doesn't even knw i lyk him...Of cos he dunno wad to do la...Aiyo,i nid to wak up frm the dream of mine..I'm onli a little girl in font of steven,how on earth will he lyk a little girl lyk me...Haix...I nid to find a boyfriend ASAP...Cos i think this is the onli way to get out of this dream of mine...
Hmmm,anyway i've highlight my hair ytd...It looks horrid...Some is blone,some is white,the effect is lyk ppl learing martial arts and they go crazy in the process where most of their hair went white...This is how i describe my hair now...I wanna redye,but i scared my hair will spoil...Forget it,anyway the colour of the dye will fade as time pass...Jus let it be ba...Hmmm,another 2 more mths,skul is goin to reopen le,but i haven receive any letter of admission yet...But today when i called up Shatec,they say that they have already send out the letter last week...And i'm one of them too,but y haven i receive yet...Even one of my friend -- tri oso haven receive...Hmmm,but lets wait for another few more days ba...If still nev receive,i think i will call and ask them to resend it again...