A tiring Day!!!Sleepy!!!

I think i will not write much today cos i'm v v tired...Wake up early in e morning to help till now haven rest yet...Hmmm,today is the first time i nev slack during my work,cos today really got alot alot of ppl...Oso dunno wad day is today,so many ppl come n eat...Make me so tired...Then hor,today we oso nev close the store on time,we closed at 3pm lei,cos really got lots of ppl,then when everytime we wanna off the lights,new customers will come...
But nvm la,at least got earn more $$$...Haha...I oso got 1 thing that mage me damm angry today,feel lyk scoldong vulgarties...Got one aunty say i deaf lei,cos when she called me and say that the food that i was golding was hers...But it was not,so i was lazy to ans her and continue walking...Then she tot that i really cannt hear properly,she say tat i'm deaf...Aft i went back to the stall,i mak a fuss abt it and luckily my uncle help me to say back tat aunty...But i still detest tat aunty,cos where can anyhow say ppl deaf de,somemore is me lei...So rude...

Eating Vegetarian for life???

Hmmm,today me and my granduncle talk alot...Cos recently i'm not feeling well and thus all my family members asked me to eat vegetarian for life as my stomach cannot take the pressure...Then he told me a story...He says that in the past when my dad and mum made a vow to eat vegetarian and not to eat meat for life...Buit in the end,they broke the vow and thus we have to tak the respnsibility of our parents breaking the vow...But since my mun wanna tak the responsibility by herself,she decides to leave the world and continue her punishment in the "tian lao"...But as for us,we also has to tak on some punishment...As for my sister,she follow my mum ways,cos she did not wanna listen to wad my grandma say and thus this is now the life she has to take...
As for me,the punishment is quite light,cos i onli cannt tak meat,as for my bro,i'm not so sure yet...But i think i have lots of sins in me as i have done lots of bad things this few days...I've been thinking through wad my granduncle have told me today and oso wad my grandma suggest to me abt...I think it is quite true,cos everybody has to tak their retribution in wadever things they do on earth...As for me,i think i've already got mine...But i still nid time to think whether i can eat vegetarian for life not,cos the temptation of meat is too strong for me...But my granduncle say all this are bullshit,all i nid to do is jus get season to it and everything will be fine...He oso say that wad goes in is different ,but wad comes out is the same,so does the food really make a great difference???This sentence is quite true la,budden i still nid time...Hmm,but i will really consider this queation,cos this is lyk a life and death,once u make the vow,u cannt break the vow,or else u and ur family will suffer...I really dun wanna go through the path that my mum and dad went through...

I'm not feeling well!!!Having fever le

My worst night mare has come...I've longed not to fall sick for a very long time,but noe=w,i think nothing can stop me from getting sick le ba...I really cannot tahan when i'm sick,cos i cannot do anything and my hands and legs will be very wobbly...Arghhh...I dun wanna c the doctor...Surely give me a jab de...Everytime sick always give me jab then say will faster recover...All bluff de,the next day my hand surely swollen de...Cos the doc no good de,always jab at the wrong position...Ask the doc GND ba...I wanna file a complain to change the doc...Hurt me...
Well,beside this,i think i'm quite happy cos i think that ching has forgiven me le ba...Cos she msg me abt the NYAA thinky...I'm not sure whether this is counted as she forgive me le ma,but i tak this as she forgive me cos she msg me...Very naive right...But i jus wanna tak it this way...Cos i really treasure the different times and events that we are together as a group...The previous letter is jus onli words of anger and i do not mean it...Cos its lyk too much things bothering me at home and friends so i will jus blurted everything out lyk tat...I really did not did it on purpose to hurt u all de...Sorry!!!

I'm sick & tired of guessing around!!!

Do u knw y i use blue???Thats because i'm feeling down frm wad has happen ytd...I knw tat ytd was ching birthday party,and i shoulden't feel this way...But my heart & mind dun wanna listen to me,tats y i feel so moody...
When ytd i meet tri to acc me buy the cake for ching celebration,we talk alot and i told her wad has happen to ching in skul as i knw that she is troubled and i oso dunno how to slove her problem,tats y i told her story to ching...But from the conversation,i knw something,and that is from the start till now,all my friends around me are not telling me the truth and all the things that i've done wrong,they dun tell me straight,instead,they tell other ppl...And this is wad i dislike...From the past,i've been telling ppl that,if they are unhappy wit me,jus tell me straight to e face,and dun let me wait till i heard frm other ppl mouth...
After i told tri abt wad has happen to ching,she told me that the real reason of y ching dun wanna celebrate her birthday is because i pissed her off...Do u knw that when i heard this sentence,how hurt am i...???And i cannt show it to anybody else,all i nid to do is keep it in my heart...I really cannot tak it anymore,i think that my heart is tearing apart...From the past till now,lots of question that i really wanna ask my friends are in my heart and all the problems i really dunno wanna tell who cos once i tell the wrong person,everybody will knw...So lots of things abt me,none of my friends knw...
I'm really feeling v sad,somehow or rather i have a feeling that my friends are using me...Whenever they nid me,they will think of me,but once they do not nid my help,they will not find me...Y is things happening in this way...I really cannt understand...I treat them wholeheartly lyk how i treat my family members,but y i jus cannt feel it this way...This is the real reason y i do not like to go out with them,cos i feel very left out,nobody in the group cares abt me...I'm like invisible to them...Lyk once,it was during kai birthday when me and ching cannt go n celebrate her birthday...When i called her and tell her tat i could not attend her birthday,her ans was lyk "ok!",but once i say that ching oso cannt attend,her reaction was lyk "huh!"...I'm sure that even an idiot oso can tell that who is the real sister in her heart and who is not ba...
U all might say that i'm sensitive but this is not because of sensitivity and i type all this out de...This is through all the years of friendship between my friends and this is wad my heart tells me so....Sometimes i'm wondering wad i did for my friends are right,cos they simply do not appreciate it...I really cannot feel the appreciation aft all the things i've done for them...Seriously speaking,if they really do not lyk me,they can say so de,so i will not disturb them for life le...Cos i really feel the humiliation,i have my pride...So pls tell me the truth...

A tiring Day

Today is really a tiring day for me,cos i nev sleep well ytd...Well,y didin't i sleep well...?Izzit thinking of somebody or not sleepy?The ans is NO!!!Cos last night i watch thailand ghost show with my sister and she put the volume to full blast...Then when the ghost came out,the sound was like WOW!loud...Then the face of all the different ghost is more and more scary....Really have nightmare...
But sleepy oso no choice,cos today i promise my granduncle to help him in his stall while he is busy with his things...But while working,i can't stop myself from yawning...Then my granduncle say later i pour ice on u then u will awake le...They always "bully" me de...Everytime i hungry and wanna eat noodles...They will always say the same thing "u wanna eat,u cook urself"...But when my other cousin wanna eat,they will cook for them...Where got like tat de...Humps,always like to bully me onli...

HAPPY!!!

I really feel v happy today although i dun get to c my teacher long enough,but i think tat i did a meaningful thing...I help the school calling lots of compaines for sponsorship,although most of them rejected me,but i think tats ok...Cos different compaines have different problems...Maybe its not that they dun wanna sponsor us,is they dun have enough ability to do that,so i dun blame them...

Gulity

Today i did something that made me feel gulity...But luckily that person dun blame me le...
The story is lyk tat de,today my granduncle is in-charge of the cooking for a funeral,so he was busy the whole morning cooking food for the ppl there...Around 1430,it was time to go home and i was rushing home as i was tired,but my aunties said tat since granduncle oso wanna go to the same place as u,why dun u wait for him...So i waited...When its time,me,my grandaunty and uncle was about to go and found out tat there is not enough place to sit and my grandaunty nod to go home by herself...So i was thinkin tat since i'm the younger generation,i nid to let my place out...So i say tat i can hold the thing on my lap and grandaunty sit in the front sit...After grandaunty left the car,we continue on our journey,and when it comes to the traffic light,the light suddenly changed into red and my granduncle took a sudden brake...Before the brake comes,i had to hold on to all the things beside me,of cos la,i could not hold to all the things and so the plate of noodles fall to the floor and granduncle is v furious tat he show me a fierce stern...I was so gulity at tat time and i feel lyk crying but i hold back my tears...Tat expression on his eyes is really unforgettable,i really cannt forget tat fierce eyes laid on me...
I really wanna say sorry to him but i can't open my mouth to say it...And i oso dunno how to phrase my wordings...I'm still v gulity,but jus when i went down to tak things from my granduncle,he is back to normal le,i dunno whether it is infront of me then lyk tat or wad...But i'm happy tat he is ok in mood le...But still v scared...

Sick...

Not feeling v good today...Cos yesterday i fell down,then nobody help me rub my injured place,so i was v pain today...But no choice,hav to go work today at my granduncle there cos today is "shi wu" then e coffee shop will have lots of ppl and its true...I was busy the whole morning and i'm running around the coffee shop all by myself looking for customers who called for their food...Around 9 plus,most of the customers have already left as they needed to rush for work,by then i'm already half dead...The worst part comes during e afternoon where all the ppl working comes out for lunch,and my granduncle sell vegetarian chicken rice during special occasion,so more ppl came...And i was there again running around the whole coffee shop and nobody helped me...I was v angry as customers are rude and i started to flare my temper at some of the customers by not answering them when they ask for green chilli or red chilli...Not long after i cried,cos i was having a great headache and nobody knows until my granduncle ask wad happen to me then i said i hav a great headache due to not enough sleep and the bad weather...So he send me home...
Although he cared for me,but it was at the wrong timing...Y mus he wait till there is no customers then realise tat i'm not feeling well???Ya,i also know tat the customers always comes first,but i'm not feeling well and my grandaunty is so free that she went to buy coconut to drink and not help me...Tats is where i'm angry of...
In the coffee shop there is a guy who is not bad in his looking and sense of humor,so i quite like him,but today then i realise tat he has a girlfriend,although i know this day would come,but i nev did expect it to come so early...

Bad Day_2

Humps,today really v suai...Cause today early in the morning start to rain le,then the slippers tat i wear is damm slippery de ma,then i got no more slippers le so no choice hav to wear tat and go coffee shop help grandma sell kueh...Then when i wanna go home le,my grandma went to buy some fruits for praying,then when i walk down the stairs,i fell down...The left side of my body hit on the floor real hard...Its really painful lo,not jokin...If u all dun believe,go try fallin on the floor and c pain not...sobx...

Bad Day_2

Humps,today really v suai...Cause today early in the morning start to rain le,then the slippers tat i wear is damm slippery de ma,then i got no more slippers le so no choice hav to wear tat and go coffee shop help grandma sell kueh...Then when i wanna go home le,my grandma went to buy some fruits for praying,then when i walk down the stairs,i fell down...The left side of my body hit on the floor real hard...Its really painful lo,not jokin...If u all dun believe,go try fallin on the floor and c pain not...sobx...