:)

today is a wed and tml we need not go to attend school as tml is LABOUR DAY!!! what's so good about labour day lei, its good because we have HOLIDAYS!!!

lols. jus school ended early as beverage loh said tat he wanted to let those who wanna donate blood to the lobby, so might as well dismiss the whole class. he's the best. *hugs*
after tat me and lay yoong was there deciding whether we want to donate blood not, cos its our first time. the 5 of us was like walking down the stairs and we reach the lobby. after standing outside for a while, we decided to walk in. stood there for quite sometime then me, ah yoong and yingying went to take the registration form to fill up. who knows, i'm under 18yrs. so i need my grandma consent in order to donate my blood. too bad. hehe

so left yingying and ah yoong to have their blood donated. me and liting waited outside for them quite some time. then liting proceed to class as she have her MIS lesson today. and janelle was being sent down by lilian lim to ask for those who are not donating blood de to go back for lesson.

left me all alone sitting there aimlessly waiting for them to come out. then the funni things happen AGAIN!!! yingying felt giddy after donating her blood. so she has to lie inside for a while more then can come out. actually the doctor should go inside the room to check on her de, but there is too much ppl outside waiting for her to approve the donation of blood then she could not go in. so yingying was being "carried" out of the room, to the doctor there and see whether yingying is alright.

very poor thing right. lol. then ah yoong say tat next time she dare not pull yingying to donate blood with her alr. cos she is afraid tat the same thing might happen. HAHAHAHA!!!!

*ps: no harsh feeling yea*

enjoying .. :)

enjoying my show half way thru. all i can say is tat my husband is so cute. lol

i wanna say something first, i ws very angry with youtube today, cos the web dun let me watch my show. make me miss my hubby. damm it. but after tat i ask tricia for help and she gave me the link to tudou to watch. heng ar! if not i think i have to wait till tml.

ok, today FSM lesson was cancelled. i dunno what reason. then me, yingying, liting and tricia was like walking around westmall to wait for the time to pass. wanting to go home at that time, but i know tat once i go home, i will not have the mood to step out of house le. hehe.

i ate lots of things today lar. going to become a pig le. and my size is growing. ARGH!!! but my appetite today was good. maybe is because my gastric did not feel painful although i did not eat my medicine. opps! better not let the doctor know, if not he will hack me into pieces. hehe.

anyway, i am all so tired with my gastric causing all those daily ache. dun feel like bothering anymore. pain let it pain lor, anyway i'm season to the pain alr.

tml is a new week again

jus got home from work. feeling tired and warm.

today is the end of the week and i got to spend my night at home. finally. today nia, cos most of the time i've been spending my night at the coffee house. but nvm, although i cannot go out but i have all my uncle and aunties there. they are good ppl yea. lols

jus at work, my gastric ache again. dunno why, but i've alr ate my medicine in the morning before i start work le. but still having small ache now. shit. i really hate my gastric. i rmb i told grandma before tat if nxt time i die, and i let the doctor take my internal organs to donate, i will not let the doctor tak away my gastric and stomach to hurt those ppl out there. cos mine is really very sensitive and its gonna spoil in no time. cos doctor say before le, if i dun take very good care now, my gastric is gonna have a hole in no time.

well, i have been hearing the doctor say lots and lots of time le. but i know tat now i must really listen to the doctor, cos this few days my gastric have been aching constantly.

在水一方

在水一方 (汪東城)

綠草蒼蒼 白霧茫茫 有位佳人 在水一方
綠草萋萋 白霧迷離 有位佳人 靠水而居

我願逆流而上 依偎在她身旁 無奈前有險灘 道路又遠又長
我願順流而下 找尋她的方向 卻見依稀彷彿 她在水的中央

綠草萋萋 白霧迷離 有位佳人 靠水而居
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我願逆流而上 與她輕言細語 無奈前有險灘 道路曲折無已
我願順流而下 找尋她的蹤跡 卻見彷彿依稀 她在水中佇立

i love this song after watching 終極一家. hehe, although this song is an old song. but after it was sung by 汪東城, it became a rock version and it was nice. lols. when have i become so old. i dunno.

jus woke up not long ago. cannt imagine why i sleep so soundly today. last night i rmb i sleep quite early lei. hahaha, i'm sucha good sleeper. the sky is dark outside now, wonder its gonna rain not. but i hope it rain, cos i like the feeling when its raining. the wind blowing so cool, and its a very good condition to sleep. lols.

in another few hours time i'm gonna go work alr. work work work throughout the weekend is my only aim?i dunno. but need $$$. cannot help.

惡作劇2吻 大結局!!!!

惡作劇2吻

ahhhhhhhhhhh! next week will be the finale of 惡作劇2吻. so sad. nvm, i'm gonna buy the show anyway. can watch a thousand or a hundred times and its my problem. bleax

hehe, today is the end of the week. and mr norman let us off early. super early. duno why. i also dun feel like caring. well, today i feel super duper tired after eating my medicine. sleep thru mr lam lesson. so sorry, i didn't mean tat.
been having my medication, so sian. i was thinking when can i ever finish tgat super big pack of medicine. hehe.

been sad these 2days. luckily i have liting and yingying to talk to, otherwise i think i better die off. lols. other than joyce mummy and aunty susan and mei ying jie. liting and yingying are the ones where i talk all my troubles out to them. hmm, they can counted as my best buddies cum sayang ba. love u all a thousand years. :)

wahahaha. i finally found the song i wanted :)

OMG OMG!!! CONGRATS ME MAN! I FINALLY FOUND THE SONG I ALWAYS WANTED!!!!

FOREVER!!!

Forever (by: Leon Jay Williams)
How can it be true
How can it be real
How can u fall for someone in just a moment of time
I must be dreaming and this dream should never die
Baby u, show me forever
And it's love.
I feel the warmth on your lips
I am lost inside ur breathe
I can reach the stars
Believe in angels that fly
I found the taste of sorrow
If i can't have u near
My whole world's around u
Like the stars would shine, forever
I feel the warmth on your lips
I am lost inside ur breathe
I can reach the stars
Believe in angels that fly
I found the taste of sorrow
If i can't have u near
My whole world's around u
Like the stars would shine, forever
(baby) u can be surei'll always be here
U had me believed in love when u whipered into my heart
I'll be ur only and u'll be the only light
Baby u, show me forever
And it's love

i'm so happy now luh. all my troubles and unhappiness have gone away after hearing and founding this song. YES!!!!

sad post :(

jus on the way home, i dunno what happen to me, i jus flare a very big temper at my darlings. threw the cigar on the floor and then walked away. straight go buy a cold drink and drank up the packet of drink at one go. few days ago, the doctor jus told me not to drink too cold stuff, not to eat too spicy, too oily and dairy products for the time being, or else my gastric will have a hole and need to stay hospital.
i did not listen to what the doctor has said, jus at mac i ate the mac spicy and drank cold drinks. my gastric is hurting now. very painful. swallow 2pills of the gastic medicine and feels better now. tsk!

feeling down today, and my mind wonder off. thought of mummy and daddy. maks me even more sad. tears rolling down my eyes, like tap water.

thinking back, mummy leave us when i was at the age of 9. at that time, i was like primary 3 onli and i have to bear the pain of mummy leaving the world and leaving me. i can still rmb how my whole family bluff me from the truth. brought me home from school, brougt me back to my old house to collect clothing and went to grandma house. i can still rmb the process, as this has always been a pain and scar in my heart and memory. at that period of time, i starve myself, thinking so naive tat if i dun eat, mummy will come back and care for me. but in the end, the answer is no. mummy will not be coming back at all. not for 1sec, but for life.
seeing mummy lying in the comfy coffin, having tat beautiful sleeping face, i really wanna accompany mummy at that point of time. from tat day onward, i've bacome a single parent child.
stayed at grandma house from tat day. as daddy dun want us anymore.

can u imagine daddy telling grandma infront of mummy deathbed tat he dun wanna have any relationship with us anymore since mummy is gone. can u image a father saying this. i really cannt imagine. daddy dun want us anymore. i can still rmb how daddy dote on me these years and suddenly he told u tat dun call him, cos his wife will tot tat he is having another affair outside. can u imagine when ur father told u this. my heart actually break at that point of time. he actually said this to us.

argh!dun wanna think of tat stupid guy anymore. slowly i start to lost confidence in guys le. starting to think tat are all guys like tat? is this the way they treat their future child and wife? this is still a question.

fast and furious week

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO U MY BABY BOY!!!

ok, today is sunday alr and its also my baby biy birthday. cute right. hehe, today he is officially 2years old.

well, going to work again as usual. sian. but nvm, got $$$ to earn. but spending a lump sum after tat. going to paya lebar on wed i think. need to buy my school vest urgently. cos i lost my metal thing behind the vest. but i rmb i didn't throw away ma. forget it, this few days i also dunno what am i doing.

my left hand is very painful, i thnk i sprained it. when i lift up my hand abit higher, i can feel my veins are pulling. very painful. argh!

i have been thinking this few days after what i have said. wha kind of guy really attract me? what kind of guy actually suitable for me? this is still a question mark inside me. me myself also not sure. trying out quite a number le, but still, no answer is found. but i know for sure is tat those pervertic ones are out.

feeling tat i'm having more and more white hair everyday, cos thinking about this and that. all these are not for me to think now, but what am i doing now. i not sure.

haiz, guys are not trustable.

every week seems so short

oh, it has again come to friday. and in my world, i think that time is going faster and faster. it seems like monday was only like yesterday and today is friday alr. tml going to work as usual again, cos i have alr recover from my ugly and swollen eye.

today we only had 2 lesson. FSM and TG. i tot this morning before FSM we will have a terrible scolding from mr. lam de. but in the end everything went on fine. cos yesterday our class ppl did something tat made the teacher stop the lesson right away. and its scary, everybody was like sitting there watching the teacher keeping her stuff and walk out of the room. me and welly was like walking behind her trying to stop her from stopping the class right away. but she was in deaf ears. she jus continue walking and sit on her place in the office.
yesterday wasn't a good day for us. god damm shit.

aaron birthday celebration

2nd post for the day. but this post isn't on me. hehe, its on my brother. celebrate his birthday jus now. didn't really prepare anything, jus bought a cake and sang a birthday song for him.

(aaron cake)

(cousins, nephew and unborn niece in the house)

(siblings and nephews)

(aaron and his cake)

short and sweet day :)

wee :) lesson ended super early today. start lesson late as when its time for lesson, less than 50% of the class is present. so our dear class rap went to mr loh and told him. so he said lesson start at 8.45am. luckily he did tat, of not today our class surely got tonnes of ppl getting dps.

after school me, tricia and yingying went to had our lunch cum breakfast. after eating we were there sitting and talking about our love life. hmm, listening to them i felt tat why all my previous bf are all so old. tsk! but nvm. consoling myself with a bright and positive manner. lols.
now i can shout out with confidence and say tat : "I HAVE ALR FORGET U AS A LOVER, BUT I WILL RMB U AS MY FRIEND. AND ITS FOREVER FRIENDS". why can i shout out loud now and not in the past is because i'm still asking myself if i still love u. but today i can shout out this phrase confidently as while we are talking about relationship. i found out tat i dun miss u tat much as how i miss u in the past, while talking about u, i will not feel sad anymore. its like i can talk about u freely, tell ur things to my friend without having the hurt in me.

and also in the conversation, i told yingying and tricia tat i think i'm liking this someone. talking to him make me feel very nervous. while he is standing in front of him, i also feel very nervous. but i jus dun have the feeling telling me tat "yes cheryl. he's the one". i certainly dun have this feeling when he is standing in front of me or when he is talking to me. actually i have alr found myself noticing him when i was in sem2 part1. OMG!!!

anyway, lets us tak things as it was. everything will go on naturally. hehe.

to aaron:

HAPPY BIRTHDAY BOY!!!

tired day ...

look!!! look at all these painful blister on my leg now. seriously painful. wore the new shoe today, but tat shoe isn't painful, is the black 2inch shoe tat made my leg like this. tsk.

ended school about 3pm today. quite qing song i can say. but for the rest of my darlings i think its a bad day for them cos today we learn how to control the tray. and the tray is heavy. the tray contain 6big and heavy glass plates and 6small side plates with some cutleries. when i hold for the first time is heavy, but for the second time, the weight is ok le. hehe.

during the process is very scary. cos the girls in our class cannt really tak the weight of the tray and the plates are like falling. the only person who i rmb tat drop the plate is komal, cos she broke the plate. lols.

when we came back from the break, we learn how to fold napkins. total we learn 8folds. crazy right. but i onli rmb 2-3folds.

rest for 2days = no income for 2days

this 2days i was resting at home. no work at granduncle there cos of my eyes. today my eyes were better, but still nev go, cos grandma say tat i have to rest my eye at home.

went to IMM jus now. went there to buy some stuff. then walk around to see whether got shoe for me not. cos teacher say tat shoe have to be 0.5inch - 1inch. troublesome.

the weather dun look good now. looks like its gonna rain cats and dogs in no time. tml will be monday, hope it will not rain. but i like the feeling of rain neh, cos very comfy. but not if i'm outside.

sensored ...

ok. this is my swollen right eye. disgusting right. so those who dun like disgusting stuff, i think i should leave quickly. or else. hehe. u might go to the toilet. u know what i mean.

ok, currently my eye is getting more and more painful i dunno why. and it is also getting bigger and bigger in the sense of the swell. dunno how the hell am i gonna go school on monday. argh! but tml will be going to doctor. if monday morning everything lokks fine, i will go to school.

not feeling well :(

woke up early in the morning, and my eyes is swollen. argh! so today i'm not going to work. tats a good thing, so i can rest at home, but the sad thing is tat my eyes are painful. the pain is unbearable. wash it with eye solution le also no use. ugly ugly. hate it man.

happy - go - lucky mood

(hair net)

(old and new blusher)

(newly bought foundation from loreal)



(newly bought shoe at mondo --- 2inch)



(leather liners -- to protect my leg)

(black pin and lipstick)

(stocking for TR)

(CJ7)

all these above are stuff that i bought for TR. super duper lot right. i also cannt stand seeing my money jus go like tat. humps. all because of the TR lor. if it wasn't all fail, i will not have such a trouble to buy all these. BUT!!!! while buying all these stuff for school, i will not forget myself de. i bought a CJ7 for myself. and its now hanging on my ds.

(lotus folding -- large)

(lotus folding -- small)

ok, these 2 foldings are the ones tat we learn during our napkin folding yesterday. actually we are suppose to end at 8pm yesterday de. but we whinned and whinned at the teacher cos we haven eat from morning, so teacher let us off at about 5.30-5.45pm. a very very very early dissmissal. i love the teacher man. hehe.
thursday is a hellich day for us. totally no break at all de lor. from 8am all the way to 8pm. no proper break for us to have our proper lunch. onli like 15-30min break. where got time to go out and buy food. u tell me lar.

well, these 2days my mood are better in the sense of not being so emo le. all i need to thanks are the ones who talked bad things about me behind my back. think through properly le. i should dislike them or rather hate them. i need to love them more, cos without them talking behind my back which i hate most. i will not perserve on and do what i should be doing now. all thanks to u all that i'm more to myself and know what i should do i class le.

hurt from yesterday ... but ...

alright. actually from yesterday incident, i was ok le. but today in class again. hurt is coming back. people is talking behind my back saying tat i did not do anything and all the things is welly the one who is doing. YES! i dun deny tat all the things is he the one doing. so i did not say anything back to them.

on the way home jus now, i did not say a word. i was thinking wad actually should i do. feel like crying. but did not cry. asking people to acc me, but all reject me. feel all alone. this is the first time i feel tat i could not get onto the conversation between yingying, liting and tricia. i feel so alone. hate this feeling actually.
liting msg me asking what has actually happened to me. did not tell her the reason, jus say tat i was perfectly fine. i dun care is they wanna say me emo again. i'm really hurt by wad the class has said. no time to think about what my darlings are gonna say me when i was walking all alone.

went to lot 1 to get all my stuff ready for tml TR. spent so much money. esp the shoe. co if wanna get those not shiny de is expensive, cos its not PVC. its kinda of like leather. spent a bomb on jus a TR. but nvm, cos we are still gonna use it.

welly called me jus now. cos he says tat there are some misunderstanding. while heis talking about all the things, i cried. cos i feel really very gulity letting him doing all the things. he stated tat he have heard some of the things alr. and he also say tat he felt sorry for me cos he did not come and ask me for help when he need one. and we also lack of communication. we both have communication breakdown. and its true lar. i agree with tat.

feeling better after talking to welly. open to everything and tml will be a brand new day. :)

today .. heavy stone on my shoulder

do u know why this post is in red. cos it means danger. but where is the danger. the danger is on me. and what is tat danger. it means tat i could not take it any longer.

in my previous post, i have stated tat i've been elected as the class chair person. and today i really feel like giving up this post. i cannt do this and tat. i know tat whatever i do nobody can have any say. but being a class chairperson i need to be a role model right. this is wad yingying and tricia always says and i also think tat its right. cos if i do not chow such role model and continue playing my ds in class, talking or evn sleeping. ppl will have the chance to say things behind my back. so to prevent all these, i have to change my habits for the time being right. i really feel tat its not myself.

although today i did not do anything much, all the work is welly the one who is doing and i feel gulity cos i'm suppose to do my part too.
just after the TR, everybody is so shacked and tired. they all wanna go home early. but me? i'm sitting there playing my ds and doing nothin to let the class going home early. i did not went to the teacher to ask if whether there is extra room for the lesson to start early.
seeing some of their eyes, looking very tired. i feel very useless at tat time you know. i cannt do anything. or my physical body didn't wanna take any action. really, at tat point of time i really feel very helpless. i dunno what to do. this is my first time being a chairperson. its really a world different frm a normal student.
although i've been a student councillor before, but the responsibility isn't as heavy as wad i'm going through. really feel like giving up. really feel like goingto mr lum and tell him to find a better person to take up this position.

today i really feel very very tired. mentally and physically. its like a big stone on my shoulder. i cannt breath properly. i cannt do whatever things tat i wanna do freely. its really a torture.

this kind of act i know its wrong. cos i shan't run away from reality. i cannt just push all the responsibility away like tat and turn my head away. i cannt. Cheryl, u need to learn how to take up responsibility. u cannt jus stay in shatec and be a normal student throughout the 3yesars. u need to learn something. u need to be independent my dear. outside th world u are all alone, no one will be there to hold u up when u fall. u have to stand up urself. same goes to this incident. although u feel very stressed up, but u must cope with it. u mus also rmb tat no matter what happens. besie u are all ur darlings and they are also waiting to share ur troubles and unhappiness. so u are not alone yea. cheer up :)

all these i know. i will try my best to be a grown up. give me few more days and i will get used to wad i suppose to do now. i need to learn how to cope will such stress and responsibility. i cannt jus let welly do everything and me doing nothing.

CHERYL, I KNOW U CAN DO IT :) JIA YOU!!!

really really long post

its been long ever since my last post. wanna recall my day but it will be so damm long.

04.04.2008 - 06.04.2008 (friday - sunday)

work through the day for sat and sun. cos its super damm lots of people during these 2days. and sunday i also the full moon day, and so its double or maybe triple the crowd. crazy crowd right. argh! tired is the onli word to describe. total up my hours of sleep onli got less than 12hrs or max. 14hrs. argh! MY EYE BAG!!! I HATE IT!!

07.07.2008 (monday)

its the first day of school and its a super duper suai day. why? because on tat day i took a mrt and guess wad. it had distruption. and the reason is tat ppl jump down the train track. when i got onto the mrt plattform, police are there asking ppl who are taking to the green line to go and find other means and ways to get there cos the train service will stop for an hr. super long right.

then the mext think is tat when its CTIS. we were first being checked on our attire by our course tutor mr lum. thereafter being bombed by mr bulgeet singh(dunno right not). its scary lor. if u were there, u dare not even blink or even drink water lar. he says tat our class has been playing fire for 7months le. now we are being burnt. i think what he says is right lar. our class has been complained by lots and lots of trainer. and 1 after another came in and talked to us. but nothing has been corrected. now its our "retribution". getting noticed by all the F&B trainer. scary man!!!

the next suai thing is tat i've been nominated to be the class chairperson. other than me is welly. i think he is even more responsible than me lar.

bad day ... but in the end turned happy

2nd post for the day. in the end we did not go out. i did not call tricia to see if she wanna go out not. cos she say tat she is too tired, so i didn't bother to call her again. so i was there getting angry with myself. then i called liting, cos i wanna make a trip to faceshop to get my usual mask.
check the faceshop webby to see where are the othr outlets. at first liting is accompanying me to IMM faceshop, cos she also wanna get somethings from Daiso, but in the end we did not meet up. cos she is not feeling well this few days.

i called my gor, luckily he is not working today. so make a trip down to his house at woodlands. went to faceshop at causeway to get my mask and also to help sister get her pair of fake eyelash. and went to his house. we played majong. lols. quite fun playing with him, cos whenever i'm down, i will blow all my unhappiness on him. he's the best gor i ever had. and not forgetting my mummy too. hehe. they are the best. ac me when i'm down love them most. i can say tat they are even better than my family members except my grandma tat shower me with more love than anyone else did.

now is majong session. lost quite abit. but nvm, cos i got hppiness.

anyway to my darlings:

SORRY ABOUT THE PREVIOUS POST TAT I SAID SUCH BAD WORDS. COS SERIOUSLY AT THAT POINT OF TIME I WAS REALLY VERY FUCKED-UP. SO I DID NOT THINK TAT MUCH. HOPE YOU ALL DUN MIND.

irritated and hatred day

well, not working today as we planned to go out. but who knows. we are not going out anymore. ah yoong sick, then yingying mother not feeling well. so yingying has to stay home to look after her mama. then tricia is too tired to travel down to cine. and so today programm is cancelled. so fucking angry now. i hate today. know earlier i can go work, still can earn extra money instead of rotting at home like tat.

i know it may be hurting to say such bad words, but i'm really seriously angry now. dunno wad to do, dun fee like staying at home. argh! nothing is going right for me. i hate today man.

APRIL FOOL!!! boo!!!

hehe, today is APRIL FOOL!!!

HAPPY APRIL FOOL FOLKS!!!

3days didn't blog le. wad am i doing neh?

30.03.2008 (sunday)

woke up early in the morning to work. somemore work throughout the day neh. so damm tired lor. luckily aaron took a pillow downto the shop and so i can sleep better.

when i was about to fall asleep, aaron did something to make me awake. and tat is he broke the whole bottle of chilli and the stairs is full of those chilli. and the worst thing is tat we have jus scrub the stairs and he make it dirty again. argh! hateful.

night is a terrible one. tonnes and tonnes of customer coming in at a go. damm shacked. sweep and mop the floor all by my own, cos clare is sick and ah pat uncle have to rush to the clinic. haix. luckily the nxt day i need not work.

31.03.2008 (monday)

nev go to work. slacking at home. but rush out of house around 2plus. cos i call maxsoft to check whether my ds is ready and they told me tat my ds have been collected. and the most impt thing is tat the receipt is still with me and my uncle also say tat he did not went to collect my ds. such irresponsible bunch of ppl. pass my ds to somebody unknown somemore without a receipt. shit them. ass _l_. so they gave me a demo set tat they claimed to be used onli 1-2times. dunno can be trusted not lor. but wad to do, tats my last choice and if i dun accept does tt mean i have to get a new one by my own. NO WAY man.

make me rush down like mad to check out. but nvm, got yingying around. hehe. after taking the ds, we went to the guanyin temple beside to pray. cos recently i really very suai. so i need something to protect. LOL.

1.04.2008 (tuesday)

and its TODAY!!! went to work about 6am in the morning. jus reach home not long. feel very shacked. tml is a working day again. but thurs nev work, cos going out with my darlings. hehe. going kboxxing. finally. my wish have come true. LOL. kiddy right. i know, but it has been a year since i suggest to them le. lalala, now finally. the day has come. lalala