sad post :(

jus on the way home, i dunno what happen to me, i jus flare a very big temper at my darlings. threw the cigar on the floor and then walked away. straight go buy a cold drink and drank up the packet of drink at one go. few days ago, the doctor jus told me not to drink too cold stuff, not to eat too spicy, too oily and dairy products for the time being, or else my gastric will have a hole and need to stay hospital.
i did not listen to what the doctor has said, jus at mac i ate the mac spicy and drank cold drinks. my gastric is hurting now. very painful. swallow 2pills of the gastic medicine and feels better now. tsk!

feeling down today, and my mind wonder off. thought of mummy and daddy. maks me even more sad. tears rolling down my eyes, like tap water.

thinking back, mummy leave us when i was at the age of 9. at that time, i was like primary 3 onli and i have to bear the pain of mummy leaving the world and leaving me. i can still rmb how my whole family bluff me from the truth. brought me home from school, brougt me back to my old house to collect clothing and went to grandma house. i can still rmb the process, as this has always been a pain and scar in my heart and memory. at that period of time, i starve myself, thinking so naive tat if i dun eat, mummy will come back and care for me. but in the end, the answer is no. mummy will not be coming back at all. not for 1sec, but for life.
seeing mummy lying in the comfy coffin, having tat beautiful sleeping face, i really wanna accompany mummy at that point of time. from tat day onward, i've bacome a single parent child.
stayed at grandma house from tat day. as daddy dun want us anymore.

can u imagine daddy telling grandma infront of mummy deathbed tat he dun wanna have any relationship with us anymore since mummy is gone. can u image a father saying this. i really cannt imagine. daddy dun want us anymore. i can still rmb how daddy dote on me these years and suddenly he told u tat dun call him, cos his wife will tot tat he is having another affair outside. can u imagine when ur father told u this. my heart actually break at that point of time. he actually said this to us.

argh!dun wanna think of tat stupid guy anymore. slowly i start to lost confidence in guys le. starting to think tat are all guys like tat? is this the way they treat their future child and wife? this is still a question.