hurt from yesterday ... but ...

alright. actually from yesterday incident, i was ok le. but today in class again. hurt is coming back. people is talking behind my back saying tat i did not do anything and all the things is welly the one who is doing. YES! i dun deny tat all the things is he the one doing. so i did not say anything back to them.

on the way home jus now, i did not say a word. i was thinking wad actually should i do. feel like crying. but did not cry. asking people to acc me, but all reject me. feel all alone. this is the first time i feel tat i could not get onto the conversation between yingying, liting and tricia. i feel so alone. hate this feeling actually.
liting msg me asking what has actually happened to me. did not tell her the reason, jus say tat i was perfectly fine. i dun care is they wanna say me emo again. i'm really hurt by wad the class has said. no time to think about what my darlings are gonna say me when i was walking all alone.

went to lot 1 to get all my stuff ready for tml TR. spent so much money. esp the shoe. co if wanna get those not shiny de is expensive, cos its not PVC. its kinda of like leather. spent a bomb on jus a TR. but nvm, cos we are still gonna use it.

welly called me jus now. cos he says tat there are some misunderstanding. while heis talking about all the things, i cried. cos i feel really very gulity letting him doing all the things. he stated tat he have heard some of the things alr. and he also say tat he felt sorry for me cos he did not come and ask me for help when he need one. and we also lack of communication. we both have communication breakdown. and its true lar. i agree with tat.

feeling better after talking to welly. open to everything and tml will be a brand new day. :)