Feeling ... ... ...

I dunno how to explain the feeling that i have now...I knw tat although we have already clear all the doubts tat we are having in the past and we are now friends again...But it really let me play back all the past tat how have i treated you to make u say all these when u are quarreling with me...I knw tat i shoulden't say all this things now,but i really feel very troubled after reading your blog...In your mind do i really look tat i come closer to you to be your frined is just tat i wanna knw more information abt steven...?In your mind do u really think tat i'm a gal who likes to copy all the things you wanna do and like...?In your mind do u really think tat i'm ugly for both inside and outside...?Is it ture tat the rest of my friends do not regard me as onw of their friends as well...?I really feel lyk asking u all these question after reading your blog...Or m i wrong in asking for your blog address...Am i really such a sucker in your eyes...U use lots of vulgar on your blog posting when quarreling with me,does tat means u really dun lyk me in the past,or till now...?Really,it true tat aft reading,i really think tat all my nthinking in the past is not wrong at all,nobody likes me right...Cos lyk wad u say everybody thinks tat i'm a hyprocrate...Is it...
I knw now at this time i should not say all this,but i really cannot help...Cos i cried half way reading your blog...Or... ... ...I dunno...I really dunno