I wanna move,but something is pulling me back...

Woopee,school orientation is coming soon...Ermmm,another 18days...Lolx,i feel excited wanting to meet new friends to widen my knowledge abt this world...In my thinking,going to shatec is a good experience as ppl studying in shatec have different age rabge as u...There are ppl studying there wit age 17-25?I think so ba,cos it is consider as a private sch,and i think it is maore interesting as poly...Although nid to wear uniform,its alright...As long as the books and things tat i'm learning is what i'm interested in...Others,it none of my business le...Going to a new environment,a new school compound,a new batch of friends,a new batch of teachers tat all i nev met before...All these look scary right,but its ok,cos i knw tat there are 2 friends accompaning me to the same course,same school and same class...

Alright,something is bothering me this few days...I coulden't sleep well,cos i've been thinking abt this problem over and over again...He called me again,asking whether i'm still avaliable...Why?Why come and ask me this question when we have nothing to do wit each other again...Why let me think of the unhappy past again lei,seeing me sad and cry u very happy issit...Is there something wrong wit u...?Even if i'm avaliabe,wad has it got to do wit u...Dun u think tat u are selfish by throwing me aside,and a few months later and come and ask me this question...I knw tat u went overseas to study,so i let u go...But u are the one who dun wan me...Not me ok!!!I really wanna move on,stop pulling me back...I'm not sure whether u still love me not,but all i can say is tat i've changed...I'm not the girl who will care abt u,who will think abt u,and the girl who will cook for u when u are sick...I'm sorry...I dunno whether tis decision is right not,but u really break my heart in the past and recently i've just recover,but here u are again making all the scars visible...I dun deined tat we have a wonderful past...We did lots of things together,and u make me feel loved whenever special occassion come...But do u think u can move me again wit all the pain u gave me...I dun knw...But now the problem doesn't lies in me,its u...Are u sure who is in ur heart now?Are u confirm tat we can go back to the past...If u cannt confirm,then pls let me go..